Celibacy - non sexual
Wanting men though - dicks. But not doing anything about it
Flirting with Guys
Wanting a gf
Getting snappish with females
Humiliated of my dating record
Not wanting a gf
Ambition fueled by a strong will to obtain several cosmetic surgeries and my obsessions with travel & money;
Travel obsessed - the only reason I’m working/only reason I’m registering for school
Money obsessed - the only reason I’m working/the only reason I’m registering for school
One side - issue for people. Annoys me. Rhinoplasty. So they can shut up about it.
My new thing - the flirting with men thing, what is that?
Testing - limits
Selfish - in love with myself
(I’m totally in love with myself)
Everyone is, or wants to be in love with themselves. That’s why they want relationships. That’s why they read the letters they intend to give away, crying over their own words.
It’s not about the world.
I think I’m my own hero, I’m alright with that.
Does the past repeat itself
Ashley, Amy, married women, married men even
Age gaps, people that are much more intelligently advanced
I form strong bonds too quickly
Zack - no goodbye
Masturbate way too much
Too many conversations
OCD - laundry, organizing, drinking too many monsters and taking too many caffeine pills, weighing myself, obsessed with cycles, obsessed with vitamins
Running isn’t, hasn’t been doing shit.
I’m immune fuckin dammit
Humor/depression - I don’t feel depressed though cause I’m always in a good mood.
All actors are crazy. Fact.
I think all people are very crazy. Fact.
Focus. I think I’ll die if I ever get my drivers license though..
Terrified of Europe. Not going.
Reading old lists
Never sad anymore, never angry
Her didn’t inspire me, it just made me think of myself. Example: have I already felt all the highs I’m going to feel? Everything is a lesser version of something great I already felt.
Not naive anymore
Hate people, kinda
‘the broken road lead me to you’ kinda people
God freaks, urgh
Live guitar, featured popular youtube videos and advertisments scare the fuck out of me, traffic, hearts of gold, the bachelor, baby talk, Facebook, Tony mantana rapper guy mentality.
At least I don’t get social anxiety…
Brave, sorta (socially)
Will power. Fact.
Better at life lately. yea.
(yet I hate everything?) lol
Phony ish. I guess.
I’m pretty honest about my bitterness and I am smiling.
I don’t want to be bored but I am.
Think about Bill Murray.
But I think about that book I read in which it detailed how Marilyn monroe’s dead body was kept in a janitor closet to keep safe from photographers.
Why that memory.
I should have never read that book.
Who watches Dexter? CSI? Why remind yourself?
What’s wrong with people.
The strongest sensation I feel is fear of death and finality.
Probably not ‘healthy’ according to the mass
Stress - caused by thoughts
Stress - write it down said every know it all there ever was.
I have been back at school for a week. My brain is officially back. I realized this when I started over analyzing everything in my life right now and coming up with philosophical reasons for my mistakes. I wonder if my concussions is to blame for my behaviour for the past two months, because I…
- “Anything designed to be inoffensive isn’t worth your time — life itself is pretty offensive, ending as it does with death.”
- “Never interrupt your enemy when he is making a mistake.”— Napoleon Bonaparte (via inunomimi)
- “Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts.”— Charles Dickens